Tonight, I pulled a Prodigal Son..

Last night I was weary. I teared up, didn't cry, ad prayed.

"God, please help me...I don't know what to do. My heart is burdened and I don't know why. Please help me. I want to feel better."

This morning, I woke up, and something told me to go Home.

So I did. I left college and came home for the night.

I have to leave my house at 5:00 to get back on time for my 7:00 class.

It's a small price to pay, for God answering prayer. In one night, he answered my prayer.

Not to mention, my momma told me tonight that she woke up this morning and something told her that I would be home tonight.

Life is good, God is great. And I love to be able to trust that God will provide for even my little petty weariness.

P to the D to the A

It may all be a matter of opinion.

What do you think when you see a couple together?
Truly, what do you do? Do you cringe? Do you smile? Do you feel the green eyed monster tap you on the shoulder?

Ok, it really doesn't bother you. . .but what if. . .
They are all over each other. They are kissing, groping, and just handsy all over. They are talking sweet, sometimes more than sweet, just being all in all inappropriate.

Ok, so maybe it doesn't matter.

What if it does. What if they are your friends. Your close friends?

Still doesn't matter. . .(to me anyway).

What do you do when you possibly show annoyance.





Then they say those words. . . "You're just jealous.."





Is it "HOW DARE YOU?!" or "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! JEALOUS OF YOU?!"?

Is it "Whatever, no I'm not, I'm just sick of you all being cute and annoying the sin out of me in class." or "Maybe I am, but you have no right to tell me that."?



The question is: How do you react? How do you take it when someone tries to tell you how you feel? When they are rude to you, but are honest. Do you hurt because their assumption is right? Do you getmad because they make an assumption in the first place? What do you do? You want to strangle them, or maybe you just blow it off. . .?

What if your destiny is to be lonely?

So. . .What if you are destined to be lonely? This is something that I have been questioning for the longest time.

Some people's whole life desire is to grow up, get married, and have many chikdren. What if that's not what God wants for you?

What if Go sees this as your utmost desire and test you. What if he sees that that is all you ever want and he doesn't give it to you to test your love for him?

Could you handle it?

Lottie Moon had a boe. She loved him and he loved her, they were even engaged, and to be married on her next trip home from China. She never came home. She said it was too long of a distance to love that far and that her place was with China and God's will and people.

Could you be a Lottie Moon for God?

Broken Hearts

This post is semi-dedicated to someone. . .someone(s).

It's not too contreversial, but then again, maybe it is.


Are you the type who falls in love? Deeply into a relentless love. Then you give and give to the relationship. You want it to work, you want it to thrive and grown into a beautiful melodious sensation of butterflies with wingspans the size of an eagles. You let the person you love walk all over you and they use you, and act as though you'll never leave. You've given up so much for them. Even when the one you are in love with forgets about you, or leads you on, you still are at their beckon call, waiting for then to take you in their arms and say, it's finally forever, that you never have to worry anymore.

Or are you the type who likes someone? Some sort of love. Yet, you have tried time and time again to feel more for the other person. Still, you can't you only look at them through a friends eyes. You will get lonely, or sad, even tired, and the other person is always there. Pushing for you to llove them, ut you can't. It's not that you refuse, but really, you just can't. You have given that person chance after chance, but they won't except that it isn't going to happen. You realize they have given up so much for you, but you never asked them to, so you can't feel bad for it. You just can't.

What if these people were together. Kind of together. One person feeling one set of these feelings, the other feeling the latter. What do you do when you see this? You love these people, both of them with every ounce of your heart. do you say the first is stupid for going back to the other? Do you say that the second is playing with the emotions of the first? Or do you sit back and say that God will do with it what he can in his own will and time?

I guess my question is. . .what do you do, when you want to help, but you know that there is absolutley nothing you can do to rectify any of the situations?

Do you help?

Or do you leave it alone? And go on thinking that they will both be the very death of you? haha..ok, no haha, seriously.

Minscual Christian Disagreement Part 2

This is just another thing that I have noticed.

In the Bible, it says that thou shall not wear what pertaineth to a man and vice versa.

My question (without giving my religious preference) is that, if a woman walks into a department store and purchases a pare of woman's pants or jeans of sometime, is she breaking the word? Is she really disobeying the Lord? I mean she's NOT wearing guys clothes, or anything that pertains to a man?

Minscual Christian Debates

This is one argument that has been battled through the religious ages:A womans hair. In the Bible it says that a woman's hair is her glory. Yet, if it is our glory, then why does it drive some of us crazy?When it says that a woman's hari is her glory, does it mean that is HAS to be long? What if my hair is haning down to the back of my knees, the ends are brittle and dead, and it is so heavy and thick that it cause severe headaches? Is it my glory then? What if it is trimmed or cut into a certain style, or a color or shade that I like, and I finally appriciate what has grown out of my scalp? Is it my glory then? Doesn't it depend on someone's personal defnition of glory?

The Right Thing

In my short time, I have seen alot of wrong in the church. I am not one to judge others actions, but I do believe that some of these things aren't necessarily right.For instance, there is a church, where when many people drive by, quite more than often, they see one or two teenage couples on the churches front porch with their hands on each other. Hands on hips and backsides, lips pressed against one another's and on the other's necks and something that is simply repulsive to see in front of a church building. The girls are dressed scantily and their "boyfriends" don't seem to mind.It has been said that in this church, this is only one of the large problems with these couples. The girls ar said to be wearing attire that makes their chest and legs quite visible. And the boys of wearing street clothing to services.It is to the point where there are parents, patrons and elders, not letting their young children, both boys and girls, come to church. They are not allowed to attend Sunday School, Sunday's or Wednesday services, even Youth Choir Practices. In the Bible, it says that the church must take care of it's own. It is Biblical that if a disruption or uprising in the church, it is the churches reponsibility to take it out. It may be Biblical, but it sure won't be easy. So how does someone go about this? Should you take time to see if it changes?What happens when they say "Well, they need to be led to Christ? They need to stay in church!"? How do you do what is so difficult, but it is said that it has to be done in the Word?